Saturday, March 23, 2024

Make something of this.

"Make something of this."  Where I come from, those words could sound like a challenge, preceded by “Oh, yeah?”  Or, perhaps, a despondent muttering, preceded by “How am I ever supposed to…?”  Or well-intended words of encouragement, preceded by “I’m sure you can…” and a patronizing smile.  And all of the above would be wrong because I am not the maker.  

Make the most of it.
Make the best of it.
Make what you will of it.

These are the unspoken assumptions behind the prayers I’ve said morning, noon, and night, tumbling out from my shaky life, as a child, young woman, adult.

Make the most of it.  Such are the prayers we wrap around newborns and pat on the heads of children, aren't they?  Please God, make the most of this child’s life as it plays out, day by growing day.  Where will this lead?  What’s out there?  Let tomorrow be good, God.  May this timid choice become confident.  These first steps lead somewhere grand.  Make the most of this potential.  Let it lead somewhere bright.

And when life compromises our ideal hopes, when I have examined boundaries too closely or picked at sores, when I've careened around dangerously with my inflated air-head, rescue me.  Please.  I've prayed such desperate prayers for damage control in the midst.  Fix my mess.  Help me never to go there again!  Give me another chance.  Incredibly, even then, I dare ask -- no, I dare grasp -- for the best.  We say, "I guess you'll just have to make the best of it," with a tone of resignation. But I’ve heard, God, that you don’t just patch together a semblance and send me out to try again, but rather that you can remake the whole kit and caboodle into a new best.  Oh, do your reversal thing the way you do, God.   Then, as I wait and hold my own breath, a whisper awakens my inner ear.  Perhaps what I want, others might need too.

And now that I’m old?  No one told me this, but I’ve seen it dozens of times:  a faithful light shines in the eyes of a wrinkled, age-speckled face.  Famous last words form a prayer, "Make what you will of it all."  Of what I accomplished, what I left undone, where I hurried, where I lingered.  Of my dreams.  Of my words.  Of my intent.  Of what this all means, of where it’s headed.  I ask not for legacy, nor for reputation, rather, to wrap it up as I turn in my keys.  It’s the prayer of someone who trusts God enough to loosen her grip and let go.  It’s the amazing conclusion that Jesus came to on that last night: make what you will of it, of it all.

These three prayers are the dialogue that has enabled me to go on when I was scared.  These are the captions beneath the photos I snapped, the postscripts scrawled on the backside of the cards I dropped in the mail to my lifelong pen-pal Jesus along the way.  They form my final answer to why. 

They are not words of advice or provocation.  They are not purpose statements or encouraging slogans.  Please, don’t paint them on a board to hang in the den or tattoo them on your wrist.  They are not directions for your life.  

They are prayers.  
They are what blessings are made of.  
Because God is the maker. 

Lord, make the most of it.
Lord, make the best of it.
Lord, make what you will of it.  

SH

Wednesday, November 29, 2023

Luke 17:11–19  Jesus heals those who have Leprosy

He probably had one of those strange-sounding Samaritan names and once that would have mattered, but it didn't any more.  By now, they had all come to accept that the disease they had in common outweighed anything else placed on the balance.  To be truthful, everything else piled together on the scale could not budge the heaviness of their condition and the lifestyle it imposed upon them.  Besides, by now, no one could tell he was a Samaritan from his features or the color of his skin.  Leprosy had effectively destroyed all of those barriers.  

They were outcasts together, required by law to live in designated areas away from the community (Numbers 5:2-3), to warn people that the were coming whenever they went out for something (Leviticus 13: 45-46).  Being unclean meant no contact with loved ones, no participation with God's people in worship and prayer.  Consequently, they had formed their own group, moved together, spoke together, acted as one unit.  It wasn't much, but it was all they had, these men without nationality, without family, without friends, without faces.  

Until that day when the healer came.  They were fortunate that he came that direction at all, really, traveling the borderland between Judea and Samaria, going to the Passover in Jerusalem.  He might have gone another way, but he didn't.  They didn't dare approach him, but called out very loudly from an appropriate distance, as with one voice, sharing one hope,  Mercy! Pity us! Help us!  Called out those familiar words, words that others usually ignored, but this one turned and saw them. 

He didn’t see them like most people did, though.  If they weren’t being shunned or avoided, they got the look.  You know, ‘I’m keeping an eye on you.’  Not ‘I see you, I value you, I’m drawn to you because of your pain and struggle.’  Jesus sees them and responds differently.  

And then… he sends them to the priests,  Go….  Says it with such a tone that they all go.  All of them, obey him despite that their situation was still impossible; they were not healed, so what could the priest do but turn them away?  Still… and on the way, they were cured, cleansed!  All 10 received the miracle they had longed for.  So they went on, straight to the priest, just as he had told them to.  Glad day!  

In all their gladness and all the commotion, I wonder if anyone noticed that the Samaritan had turned back.  He who had grown accustomed to speaking in unison with them now was speaking in his own voice.  Although still calling out loudly, he had new words.  Words of praise.  He eagerly closed the distance between himself and the healer.  He fell at his feet.  His feet. That close!  The Samaritan differentiated himself from the old group and made the personal choice to show himself to the healer as if the healer were the only priest he needed, the one who restored him to God and others.   

The disappointing part of this story is that 9 were evidently satisfied with their physical cure.  Realistically, all they had wanted was their lives back.  To pick up where they left off.  To get back on their feet again.  

They may have been ecstatic at the moment when it dawned on them.  Amazed to look at each other, to look down at the skin on their arms and legs and see the change!  They may have whooped it up!  Ran to the priests to make it official, ran to their homes and loved ones waving those arms.  Look at this!  They may have made a big deal over the gift they received; we don’t know.  But they definitely did not make a big deal over the Giver.  

This Samaritan had been an outsider long before he got leprosy.  The other 9 had once belonged in this community.  They were going back to the sweet content of acceptance.  The 9 were thankful for, not thankful to.  

But the bible calls us to another level, to be thankful TO.  To see through the gifts to the giver of all good things.  To marvel at the beauty and precision of creation and be grateful to such an amazing creator.
 
It’s the difference between: “I’m glad I got my life back” and “I owe you my life!”  It’s tricky.  We all make lists of things we’re thankful for.  Sincerely.  And that’s good and right.  But if all of those things were suddenly gone, would we still be thankful? That’s the question Satan poses at the beginning of the book of Job, you know:  “Does Job fear God for nothing?” 


Maybe we think we don’t know anyone who has leprosy.  I recently learned a new term.  “Othering.”  It’s about seeing the world as us-versus-them.  It’s a social illness in our world today.  

And I’m not borrowing that word “illness” just to connect with the text.  A few months ago, in an 81 page research document, US Surgeon General, Vivek Murthy declared “widespread loneliness in the United States the latest public health pandemic…According to Murthy, healthcare experts have concrete proof that loneliness impacts a significant part of the U.S. population, causing sensations akin to hunger and thirst.  He defines loneliness as ‘The feeling the body sends us when something we need for survival is missing.’… And we will continue to splinter and divide until we can no longer stand as a community or a country. Instead of coming together to take on the great challenges, we will retreat to our corners – angry, sick, and alone.’” (https://jacksonadvocateonline.com/u-s-surgeon-general-warns-of-high-cost-of-loneliness/)  

Othering.  It’s about fitting in at the expense of labeling others as outsiders.  Othering is one way to meet our need to belong.  
11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector.  (Luke 18:11)
But it’s not the only way.  When a woman who is routinely cast out, finds hope in Jesus and washes his feet in gratitude, he honors her choice.  
47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven; hence she has shown great love. But the one to whom little is forgiven loves little.”  (Luke 7:47)

That’s the key.  Remembering what it feels like to be an outsider clears the way for a different choice, to live in gratitude.  The difference between the 9 and this one is that when he sees that he is healed, he exclaims, “God!”

This is about all the things we say we believe in, you know: worship, expressing our gratitude for forgiveness by loving others.  That’s the best part about being seen and included.  It’s such a relief and you feel so grateful to God.  
 So, how are we doing? It’s a familiar passage.  Predictable.  So perhaps as we heard it again, we immediately saw them, the 9, as those “ungrateful ones.”  If so, then we’ve still got some distance to go on that road with Jesus yet.  Because we’ve read that label into the text.  It’s not there.  

In fact, the text points us in the other direction.  We are told that Jesus travels to Jerusalem along the border between Judea and Samaria.  He didn’t have to go that way.  Most Jews who made the pilgrimage avoided it, going through the Jordan Valley instead and they would have taken note of this.    (https://www.biblewhere.com/jesus-travels-routes/)

In other words, Jesus walks along the dividing line between them and their neighbors.  Along the lines that divide us.  Jesus reclaims the word “other.”  He doesn’t condemn the 9.  There are no words of judgment here.  To Jesus, while there’s time, “others” are those who have not come back yet.  And he stands there on the border between them and us, looking down the road for them.

Where are the others?  Love God, Love others.

Tuesday, October 3, 2023

     I've recently collated some newsletter articles that I wrote to the first church I served after seminary and self-published them into a paperback book.  But I'm not quite sure what to do with it.  

When I started pulling this together, I wanted to make sure those writings existed.  I had some hard copies, but no digital files.  I wanted to revisit some record of that time, those efforts.  I wondered if I still agreed with myself, if my expressed hopes had been durable.  

I also wondered what my grandchildren would imagine that I believed.  Or their children.  Childhood impressions can stick or change.  I wanted to nudge those to grow as they grew, to evolve from a silly, loving and, hopefully, lovable grandma to some semblance of a woman who thought about how life was going on around her, who spoke about it, and who encouraged and urged others.   And I wanted them to give a fair hearing to the lived faith I knew, not the stereotype version that was emerging as a prototype to be sold to future generations.  Or becoming obsolete. 

Last night I dreamed that I was somewhere high enough to get a bird's eye view of a mid-sized city.  Not one of those skyline views from a plane or drone or superhero.  A place between the earth and the bright horizon.  A bird's eye, looking down with a bird's intent, for something.  For a place to land?  To eat?  To join in a birds-of-a-feather chorus?  Maybe. 

I have this book in hand.  I'm just going to lay it down here.  Perhaps someone will spot it.  

Encountering: the handiwork of faith 

SH